almost easy

Ku perhatikan, hari-hari mu nampak lebih indah ya...

Apa karena kau telah mendaptakan kebahagian baru?

Terlihat kamu menikmati sekali ya kebersamaan dengan yg lain...

Apa benar dia yg kamu cari?

Sahabatku sedang mencari sesuatu

cepat dapatkan itu, dan kembali seperti dulu

comeback to me is almost easy

butuh

Disaat seperti ini, disaat tidak ada seorangpun waktu nya tersedia untuk ku
tidak ada yang  lain yg aku mengharapkan kamu, sahabatku

Disaat semua orang tau, tidak ada yg bisa mengedalikan aku
yg aku inginkan penawarku hanya kamu, sahabatku

Semua orang sibuk, semua orang sendiri-sendiri
tapi aku tak ingin sendiri, aku ingin kamu disamping sini

Kamu kemana??????
aku butuh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

should?

aku, kamu, dia
perasaan ku, perasaanmu, perasaannya
benci, munafik, egois
persahabatan, cinta, luka

aku geram, selalu salah langkah
kamu nyaman, dapatkan keduanya
dia senang, kamu miliknya
tidak adil

korbankan mana?
keinginanku? tega sekali
keinginanmu? pasti bimbang
keinginanya?kamu ragu

lalu? bunuh saja, siapa?
aku? wow!
kamu? cerita selesai
dia? aku girang, kamu? :)

aku benci

hari ini terasa begitu cepat
hari ini begitu ringan
hari ini indah
apa karena bersama kamu?

malam ini sunyi
malam ini hati ku bergemuruh
malam ini hati ku takut
esok kan tiba

esok kau bersama nya
esok mungkin lebih membahagiakan mu
esok yang kau tunggu
aku benci

berharap esok tak pernah ada
berharap lebih baik aku mati
pilih dia atau aku saja yg mati?
kau takkan pernah bisa memilih

-esimorp-

no one can change your position
no one can be better than you
don't worry I always yours 
you are the best I ever had

kamu

kamu mengajarkan aku kebersamaan, lalu ajarkan lagi kesendirian
kamu ajarkan aku tertawa, kemudian ajarkan aku menangis
kamu mengenalkan ku kepercayaan lalu kau beri tahu aku keegoisan
kamu berikan aku kekuatan tetapi kau singgahkan ketakutan

kesendirian ku membuat ku tenang
tangis ku membuat ku lega
keegoisan  menjadikan ku lebih tangguh
ketakutan menjadikan ku semakin berani

aku diam
aku berfikir
sebatang tembakau membantu otak ku lebih cerah
namun semua tak terjawab

jawaban yang aku inginkan hanya kamu
harapan kembali nya matahari ku
namun kamu diam
kamu tak pernah tau

Rindu

hari ini aku merasakan kerinduan 
entah untuk keberapa kali
entah sudah seberapa dalam
rindu ini tetep bersarang dihati


untuk hari ini kerinduan ku beralasan kuat
dia pergi sesaat
dia dekatpun aku rindu
apalagi saat jauh 


aku mulai memahami makna rindu 
rindu bukan hanya kata yg sering ku ucapkan 
rindu bukan hanya buyonan semata
aku "rindu" kamu

hate

i hate that face
face who can make my mood down
face who can i feel very angry
 i really want to hit that

i hate his face
face who can make my N smile
face who take away my N
face who was make i lost my N

hope >< believe

I Believe that someday you comeback, like everything never change, everything okay, we forget about today and yesterday........

I hope

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I cant give you more than I can do now
I confuse what must I do for you
One side, I wanna like usually, everthings okay, but you know that's impossible
I wanna be just the one to you, the fact you have another


I try to realize that, you have another way to happy, another shoulder to cry another people who make you comfort, another figur who you need


but until now, i can believe that. never accept that ever.....

talk-hear

A: "I feels different when I meet her again, after a week never see her. more than I feel this is like hmmm....changes of attitude, every she told every she do I means...."

B:  "It's just your feeling:)"

A: "No, I've a reason why I can tell you this"

B: "Tell me that reason"

A: "She won't to give me a space to know her again....she never want to share anything with me again.... I'm not the one she need again"

B: "Maybe she's busy now, positive thinking:) you're the one she need, absolutely"

A: "I don't feel the same, feeling I'm not know her this time, that I know her not like this, I miss the old her"

B: "The world turn around, someone have  the time to change, NOT TO GO AWAY FROM YOU, but someone have a process to become mature"

A: "I can't realize that until now.... I'm still being selfish:( how pity I'm"

B: "No, you have a lot of friends, you have your family, they love you, they need you.
I'm here, tell me about your problem, about your feeling, I'm not her but I can  help you if I can:) "

A: "Please let me to be selfish, I want her just to me I want her comeback like every promblem never comes,never changes in my life:"( "

B: "Everythings okay although everything changes, although your life changes, although she changes, just enjoy your life, trust God, God give what you need, not you want"

A: "What's wrong with my mind? like full of her, that's can't let it be until when? I don't know if God don't create her for me, who u need............"

B: "??????????"

In a Rush

It came over me in a rush 
When I realized that I need you so much 
That sometimes I cry, but I cant tell you why 
why I feel what I feel inside 

How I try to express what's been troublin' my mind 
But still can't find the words 
But I know that something's got a hold of me 

Baby, some day I'll find a way to say 
just what you mean to me 
But if that day never comes along 
and you don't hear this song 
I guess you'll never know that... 


And when I say inside, I mean deep 
You fill my soul with something I can't explain 
It's over me 

OJP (Over Jump Pleasure)

kehadiran mereka tak terduga, kesenangan muncul penuh irama
tak terikat namun merasa dekat, mereka pemudar pucat
waktu tak terasa bila bergurau bersama mereka
tawa tak terbendung bila celoteh tumpah ruah

mereka pencair kesedihan
mereka pelipur lara
mereka pemilik canda tawa
mereka OJP {}

se-bulan

masih ku ingat semua kejadian selama sebulan kemarin

sebulan aku merasa separuh nyawaku hilang

sebulan aku kehilangan kebahagiaan

sebulan aku kehilangan hari-hari ku yg biasanya baik-baik saja

ku rekam sebulan kemarin di otakku

ku tulis semua di memopad-ku

mereka tahu betul apa yang terjadi sebulan kemarin

mereka simpan ceritaku sebulan itu

aku ingin lari dari sebulan kemarin namun seperti nya akan ada sebulan lain nya yg menunggu

aku ingin menghapus sebulan kemarin lagi-lagi terfikir bahwa sebulan "itu" datang lagi

aku harus apa?

ya, aku akan terus menulis dan merekam sebulan yg akan datang

apakah dia tau?

tak usah, akan ku nikmati sebulan ini.........

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how often i talk with someone
how detil i explain
how fake i smile
no one knows.........


feel i'm invisible 
feel i'm fade
feel i'm nothing
i'm castaway


all i think
all i hope
all i want
i wanna be selfish person


stop to being kind
stop to being patient
stop being smile
do that make you happily


even it make someone sick
even it make someone cry
even it make someone angry
just think what can make you happy ever!!!!!!

damn!

I lost 2 big things in life

best friend and love

they make me unbelieve about them again

like we never known each other

you can’t get both of them

you get one you lost one other

you cant trus both of them

you believe one, another treason

someone told me I’m the only one

sooner it will be lie

someone say never leave me

letter it will be fake

I don’t know about them again

I cant understand about them again

I don’t have patient to them again

I never want to see them again

too hurt to remember

too sick to know

too sad to see

too stupid I’m